It has been ages since I last posted anything here… and I have tons of exciting excuses to show for it… but I won’t tell it straight out.

Suffice it to say for now that I spent the last few months searching myself in relation to my journey as a person and as a Christian.

It has not been an uneasy search mentally and spiritually. I was seeking for answers to questions for which I already know the answers… but it’s not the answers per se that I was looking for. I was looking for my self… for my heart’s sincerest ponderings, to see whether I, in the filthy recesses of my poor soul, I truly consent with the Bible’s answers to life’s deepest questions.

It was a necessary journey for me for I cannot continue to live, much less write, based on second-hand truths; I have to see Truth from my own soul’s window instead from borrowed set of eyes. I have to experience knowledge out of my own humble existence, through my own lonely perspective, as would a worm on the ground.

Thanks to God that I found myself by grappling with the answers to some of the most intimate answers provided in the bible. I believe they are the kind of answers that can’t be truly arrived at except by honestly living through with the tough personal questions.

In facing life’s dark dangerous challenges squarely in the eye, it’s exhilarating to realize that a believer can actually fight back armed with no less than the light saber of God! Take heart, believe... and hear darkness ripped apart from the very depths of your soul.

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